April 3rd, 2015
Psalm 31:24 “Be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart, all you who hope in the Lord.”
On March 31st, I had a terrible evening, not physically, but emotionally. I felt super annoyed and angry and upset, that I wanted to cry, but I just couldn’t. I just wanted people to stop talking about us leaving. I wanted everyone to just freeze and let it be. Can’t we just live and when it comes to the day we leave we can talk about it then? Well that’s reality…we are leaving and of course people are going to talk about it. It just hurts sometimes. That night, I decided to read Psalm 31 and I was immediately brought to tears…tears of joy. God used that entire chapter that night to speak to me. I was letting my emotions drive me rather than the Lord drive me. I am a sinner and I am broken, but He is my rock, and my everything, I must hope in Him. I am saved by His grace, I need to be thinking of that and of Him and be rejoicing in Him. “I will be glad and rejoice in Your mercy, for you have considered my trouble; you have known my soul in adversities” (Psalm 31:7).
God knows. He knows exactly what I’m going through and how I feel. But I cannot be driven by emotions. It’s not about emotion, or the people, or the relationships, or even the ministry, it’s about God and furthering His Kingdom. The people I meet and the relationships I make along the way are just the blessings God gives me. Which is amazing, but it all is ultimately Him. Not only should my hope be in the Lord, but my hope IS THE LORD. So anytime I feel my emotions taking over and driving my attitude, I will pray. I need to remember to be of good courage, because He strengthens me, He strengthens my heart, if I place my hope in Him. So I will look to Him and know that He is in control. My hope is the Lord.