April 3rd, 2015
Psalm 31:24 “Be of good courage, and He shall
strengthen your heart, all you who hope in the Lord.”
On
March 31st, I had a terrible evening, not physically, but
emotionally. I felt super annoyed and angry and upset, that I wanted to cry,
but I just couldn’t. I just wanted people to stop talking about us leaving. I
wanted everyone to just freeze and let it be. Can’t we just live and when it
comes to the day we leave we can talk about it then? Well that’s reality…we are
leaving and of course people are going to talk about it. It just hurts
sometimes. That night, I decided to read Psalm 31 and I was immediately brought
to tears…tears of joy. God used that entire chapter that night to speak to me.
I was letting my emotions drive me rather than the Lord drive me. I am a sinner
and I am broken, but He is my rock, and my everything, I must hope in Him. I am
saved by His grace, I need to be thinking of that and of Him and be rejoicing
in Him. “I will be glad and rejoice in Your mercy, for you have considered my
trouble; you have known my soul in adversities” (Psalm 31:7).
God
knows. He knows exactly what I’m going through and how I feel. But I cannot be
driven by emotions. It’s not about emotion, or the people, or the
relationships, or even the ministry, it’s about God and furthering His Kingdom.
The people I meet and the relationships I make along the way are just the
blessings God gives me. Which is amazing, but it all is ultimately Him. Not
only should my hope be in the Lord, but my hope IS THE LORD. So anytime I feel my emotions taking over and driving
my attitude, I will pray. I need to remember to be of good courage, because He
strengthens me, He strengthens my heart, if I place my hope in Him. So I will
look to Him and know that He is in control. My hope is the Lord.
