March 25th, 2015
Joshua 4:7 “Then you shall answer them that the waters
of the Jordan were cut off before the ark of the covenant of the Lord; when it
crossed over the Jordan, the waters of the Jordan were cut off. And these
stones shall be for a memorial to the children of Israel forever.”
Acts 7:51 “’You stiff-necked and uncircumcised in
heart and ears! You always resist the Holy Spirit; as your fathers did, so do
you.”
March
23rd, 2015, I felt burnt out and drained and I let it get to me. I
got to the point of complaining about work that I needed to get done, such as
finishing our last overview video to IBS. I felt like it was getting in the way
of just being in Cambodia. That night, sitting with Kaylee on a bench in the
courtyard, something she said was (is) so true… “Don’t let it become a routine.”
Just watching some of the youth leave their evening English class and letting
it sink in, that’s when the conviction came. The Lord brought to mind all the Scripture
I have been reading from Exodus to Numbers. God brought the Israelites out of the
land of Egypt, He saved them; He did so much for them. Yet, while going through
the wilderness they complained about the manna, turned to worship a golden
calf, and just straight up disobeyed God. They had forgotten… forgotten.
They forgot what the Lord did for them and what He took them out of. And that’s
when I realized, I had forgotten. Forgotten what this is really all about, God.
I let drowsiness turn to sin and my perspective changed, becoming bitter. How
could I? …IBS is one of the best things here, God always speaks so deeply and
profoundly and I get to share it with you all. The video is completed as of
yesterday and I love it; it says so much more than anyone will ever fully
understand! And that’s just it, because it is all God. I get to share with the
world the work God has allowed me and my teammates to do through Potter’s Field
Ministries! I get to do all these things.
So
through surrendering that to the Lord and thanking Him for that conviction, the
next morning (yesterday), I read these passages in Joshua 4 and Acts 7. Taking
the stones as “a memorial to the children of Israel forever.” God just helped
the waters of the Jordan cease so they could cross over to get to Jericho. He
told them to take the stones as a memorial. Then reading Acts 7, Stephan was
recalling things from Abraham to Solomon and then got to verse 51, “’You stiff-necked
and uncircumcised in heart and ears! You always resist the Holy Spirit; as your
fathers did, so do you.” He was telling them they forgot…forgot. I couldn’t
describe what was going through my mind reading these the morning after God
brought that conviction, it was so cool. Their hearts were hardened even more
and they stoned Stephan. So through this God showed me to not forget and to have
a proper perspective, eyes set on Him. And because of His love and grace, He
brings that conviction and reminds us. How incredible is my Lord to remind me,
even when I forget? And God asked me, “Brittani, are you going to let your
heart harden even more and have the wrong perspective or are you going to
change your perspective and do something about it? …Do
something about it.
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